College? Maybe... Definitely

If you would have asked me two months ago if I felt differently being 18, I would have said no. Because it didn't. Now I have been 18 for a little over 2 months and not much has changed in my life but I have learned a lot over this summer. Don't get me wrong I have my fair share of family drama between both sides if my parents. And don't get me wrong several times since senior year has started my mom has tried to kick me out because she scared I'm going to leave, I guess she is trying to beat me to the punch. The weird thing is, every time it happened I had the same freaked out, panicked reaction. I would cry, scream, throw things around, and try and hold myself together when she came around. 

Partially in my mind, I know why she does it, but the other part is still amazingly confused. School is now, right around the corner, a week away, everything is getting more serious and it's finally becoming real in my mind. I'm scared to be away from my family and home and I'm excited to be away and have a slice of freedom. Being 18, I know that there are thing I can and cannot do without repercussions. Just from all my responsibilities and experiences these last two months I can say I ready to take on my new adventure, and hope to be nothing but successful. 

While I may be ready for this new adventure, I still wonder whether I'm actually ready for this.. we'll find out soon.